After school today, I met up with Mum to go for lunch together. Initially some of my classmates had wheedled me to go along with them for lunch. But when one decided to back out, the other one also backed out. So alas I decided that I will have lunch with Mum.

After lunch, it was Mum's interview for a new job; in a boutique shop, located at International Plaza, situated in the CBD. She was quite fickle at first; wondering things from whether there will be business for a boutique shop in the CBD to whether she will have to pack out clothes from the store room. I did not include my personal opinions when she questioned me about whether she should go for the interview or otherwise. At last she decided to go for the interview, where I stayed put in Coffee Bean, scanning through some magazines on the rack, though not the renown ones. She was back in less than 10minutes, stating that there was miscommunication between the person who my Mum called and the manager at that shop outlet, so they will ring my Mum after they discuss about the amount of pay.

Then as we were going home by the MRT, a boy. or perhaps a man, in his late teens looked at my attire, where he took quite a long time glancing. I felt funny so I went to look at myself on the mirror of the lift. Then I realised the way I dressed was awkward. A long shirt accompanied with short shorts, looks "obiang"(not very cool) indeed. I never thought of keeping abreast of fashion, but I never expected that my fashion sense is really so dull. It seems like I am not abashed of my poor fashion sense, because how people view me on my outward appearance is not as important as them viewing my innate qualities and talents.


In yesterday's Chinese Service at TC, SM Goh Chok Tong came to visit our church. It was a short one. He only stayed for about 10minutes, and we blessed him before he departed from our midst. Could not make it for SOM AGAIN. I have not attended any SOM classes, including the last lesson. The first week I was down with vomiting and dizziness, the following week it was my cousin's first month celebration(man yue). Seems like I have to wait till the next SOM class on the book of Ecclesiastes.
Then my whole faimly went to watch the match between Slingers and KL Dragon at Singapore Indoor Stadium. Slingers lost by 10points, with a score of 68:78. The referees, I personally feel, are "kayu"; minor roughness of the Slingers are viewed as aggressiveness. A few Slinger supporters up there were critising the referees, saying that they will pay them more money so that they will be bribed, and that 5vs8, 3referees that belonged to the KL Dragon. And they kept pouring vulgarities, which according to my sister, were not exhibiting sportsmanship.
Then in the evening I went to play basketball with my sister. Made a couple of new friends. And the whole basketball court only consist of one girl, that is my sister. She is such a sporty girl.


Coming to the topic of Chemistry: I loathe Chemistry. But there is an approachable lady who aided me in my Chemistry, allowing me to have some, or at least a tinge of interest in Chemistry. To that lady, I would heartily show my appreciation of gratitude to you for your support to me in the time where I was about to give up upon myself, but you gave me the olive leaf of Noah's dove, and there was a glimpse of hope for me at that time. Your help gave me a more valiant attitude towards my study. No wonder you got pregnant, as the Lord blesses those who bless others. God is good. Praise the Lord!


Came out from class today at 1030. It was then followed by a 1hr plus of stagnating in Borders Bookshop. I liked the book which talked about how to provide a boy with his emotional needs. It is indeed very true that the society views boys as the ones who can take the 'hit' whereas girls must not take the 'hit'. This is a myth as boys do have their vulnerablities too, but they tend hide their emotions and pretend to appear strong on the outside. But the book costs $31.90, so after reading it for about 45minutes I decided to put the book down and moved on to the other sections.

Then I came to the science section. There hides my worst fears; organic chemistry dummies, genetics and biochemistry. Despite the intimidation, I approached the books. Pharmaceutical Science began to implant itself in my mind again. The chemistry terms and diagrams did cause my adrenaline to pump to go for a 'flight' response when I first saw it. I had enough of Chemistry and perhaps, Biology, too(more on Chemistry, though)! I will never buy home a book related to Science.

Then at 1300 I had my lunch with my group members, after which we had our discussion on Project X. Peter Soo gave most of the idea, where the rest of the members like me just listened to him. He is very active in providing ideas. I provided my idea but the usage was limited. It poured when it was time to go home, so we walked along the sheltered paths.

The Bukit Timah region is flooded. Flooding occured at Bendemeer the other time.


I reached home today at about 4pm. Had lunch with my Mum at Bugis Junction. The Soup Spoon is an ideal place for people planning to go on the vegetarian route to dieting. All I have to say is that the meal was both scrumptuous and sumptuous. We had a great meal together. Then we went Cold Storage.

The real test began at Cold Storage. But the apprehension that was usually attached vanished. After so many months of struggling over these encounters, I discovered that I grew more in audacity and courage when facing these experiences. I would say I see myself grow through this whole process. However, I wonder how long these experiences would last; a few weeks more, a few months more, or a few years to come? Never did I blame God on what happened to me, neither did I complain of what I am facing. But I waited in silence, seeing if God wants to put me to the test me further. I will never take it to heart if God allows the worsening of my current condition, or if he allows other bad things to happen to me, because I know it is for my good. I don't mind if my world collapse, seriously. I understand that he knows how much I can take, and will not see me into destruction.

God is good; one went, and another came. He did not abandon me as an orphan. Apart from the Holy Spirit, he sent me yet another person. He has been coaching me like a son, though he has only three daughters and no sons. God's plans are impeccable; too flawless to be comprehended by the human mind. But to the former; I had never blamed you nor held any grudge against you. I learnt that you indeed have your limitations, but please tend after your drove of sheep closely, lest they become like the one who has found its way to another shepherd. Please do something before the flock gets dispersed. But to the latter, many thanksgivings I bestow you; despite your limitations you still withdrew time for our fellowship. You never grew weary from your work, your family, and your ministry, for the Lord is your strength; He renewed your wings like that of an eagle.

To George: Don't feel bad that you could not do anything to help me. You have helped me in a lot of ways, especially Faith; I indeed learnt a lot from you. God has sent me someone who will take good care for me, so no worries for me. =) Thanks for your efforts in helping me, I really appreciate it.


It's been close to two months already.

FCBS is a great place to learn; from leading worship to learning the word. I might be "unemployed" currently, but I know that God has his plan; for He has plans to prosper us and not to harm us, plans to give us a new hope. So why shall I worry? He will sure give me a "job" soon. Next April.


Hi.
I don't feel like updating my blog.
So Bored.
In general, my life is ok
Yawn.
I think that's all with updating my blog.
Bye.
(This is an example of a chiastic structure =) )


Thank you for spending time at your own expanse to accompanying me to East Coast Park today. I indeed feel alot better after that shout and felt some kind of a relief and joy and peace. Thank you for the hug; you made me realise how God still loves me no matter what becomes of me. Thank you for the olive leaf that Noah received. Thank you for alot of things. Thank you for your Monday nights. Thank you for comforting me. Thank you for seeing me through this season of my life. Thank you for supporting me. Thank you for being my brother-in-christ cos I enjoy having a brother like you that is a role model to me. Thank you for correcting me when I'm wrong. Thank you for loving me even though I know I'm not loveable. Thank you for your efforts in grooming my character. Thank you for not giving up on me even though I have almost given up on myself. Thank you for understanding me. Thank you for running by my side. Thank you for being frank in telling me your own life-story cos I feel I can learn alot from it. Thank you for the encouragements. Thank you so much.


My two weeks mid-sem break is here!

If Mark were to say it's a two-weeks holiday, I would be considered self-deceiving, because there are common tests the week after next, that is also inclusive of 4projects which dues on Week 15. And reports!!!! wah!!!!

Talking about today. My Dad brought my grandfather along to eat dim sum. After the 'yum yum', we headed straight to Mount Faber. We were finding ways to reach the bridge at the summit, and we did it -.-

Then we went to TCT for chinese service and we bumped into Choon Yong. FYI Choon Yong is my father's cell group leader.

Just went to Simon's house with Mum to see his baby daughter. She's so cute; her face was flushing like new year's day ang pow.Then we have a short conversation with them. I gradually realise that he has aged alot since the last time I met him. His wrinkles are appearing near the eyes region already.

So here I am again back at home. Good night! Auf wiedersehen!


I've changed
Yes I've changed
You think that I've changed
Mum,Dad and Sis felt that I changed,
even I felt that I've changed.

Some changes are inevitable.
If changes hadn't happened to me
Would I have changed?
But change is for my growth, so
I'm no longer that small kid you used to know.

I hate changes too, in fact
I hate the fact that I have changed.
I want to be as in the past, carefree and naive,
But I have to grow, so please know
How get used to the changes in me.
I'm still the one that you used to know,
except with changes.


Hi all. Going for lessons on weekdays have become a kind of norm for me already. I really have to accept some facts about my course; I have to go through those three years dealing with chemicals and microorganisms!!!!!! Argh!!!!!!

I'm still wondering why our German teacher is not teaching us prepositions and the whatever-German-rules-may-it-be, but I'm glad he's teaching us how to count =D

I hate Physical Chem!!!! All the new laws again! What Bronsted-Lowry and Henderson-Hasselbalch law!!!!! So KNS!!!! opps...

Everything is fine for me =) Auf Wiedersehen!!!


Why? She gave up and avoided her passion because of me. I feel so touched, at the same time useless; Useless for not being able to convince her that she should revive her passion. I caused someone to lose her passion. I'm such a rotten meat.=(


Hi all! The assignments and projects here in my course is still manageable so far, but i begin to have headache remembering new stuffs! Esp the gas laws in physical chem! There's the A to D law that i just realised; Avogradro's, Boyle's, Charles', and Dalton's Laws. Still got that dunno what ideal gas law. Hope God will be there to support me through these tough times of learning.

I went to Edward's house on Friday night for cell meeting, which was Labour day. Had a great time of sharing life stories and learning to discern if a man is a follower of God's ways.


Hi all! Mark is here to update his blog again!

I would say that the recent assignments and lessons are rather manageable and not much of difficulty. However, I'm rather shaken when I see all the safety procedures in the lab and the chemicals that will corrode and that are poisonous. I don't want to be corroded or poisoned by chemicals!!!!! *Sighs*

I don't know how I ended up in Pharmaceutical Science. God save me!


Hi all! It's been two days of Poly life and things are going on fine. I have particular worries like what to print off the computer and when must we configure our laptops. There's no particular reason to be worried about all these, 'cos I've got more to worry; my studies.

I had my first German elective lesson yesterday and I would say it was pretty hard to get a hold on it at first. After practising many times, I would say it wasn't as difficult as I have thought it would have been. Entschuldigung means 'excuse me' and danke means 'thank you'. Last of all, I want to say Gute Nacht to all of you, which means Good Night. I'm going to bed soon. Auf Wiedersehen(Till we meet again) =)


Hi all! I'm here to update my blog again. I've visited my NYP portal to check on my timetable. Mondays are really super duper long days! 6 hours of lessons with 4hours of interval! Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays are better as the time interval are 1~2 hours and there are only 4hours of lessons. Fridays are 5hours of lessons.

What to do during the hours interval? Study together!!! Shall we gather at the library to revise together? Tag me so I know how many of you want to join us for study group. Let's all work together and strive for Uni, ok? =)


Hi all! I am recently attending the orientation for NYP School of Chemical and Life Sciences. In this orientation programme I did make a lot of new friends. I'm in fact surprise that I can make friends; I thought poly life means politics, and didn't even expect making any friends at all in the first place. I'm real glad that the people in my class are warm, and I have a few friends that are fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. I would say it is God's plan that He had planned me in my course.

Talking about orientation, the first day were games. We played games, from ice-breakers to Amazing Race to telematch.

The second day was also enjoyable. We got introduction to our elective modules, and I'm planning to take up German. I know it is hard, but I've got no choice. The Kiasu Singaporeans had waited up till 12mn last night to make basic chinese and malay their elective. Coming back to second day programme; there were also skit preparation and skit performance. Keefe put up an act as an effeminate student which brought the house down. We got 2nd in place for best skit, so it's considered that our skit was of good quality.

Then on Wednesday we went back to school for only 1hour to attend an IT lesson on e-library. Today we had team building session with our school's discipline master. He says he doesn't want us to think of him in the negative side but more of a positive side; the positive side is to discipline without punishing as in teaching us on how to work together as a class. I'm quite satisfied with his explanation of himself as a discipline master though, but I think he can be real fierce and firm when he wants to be.

That's all folks. My life is smooth sailing, and I hope yours is so too =).


Hi all! Sorry for my long absence again. Actually I got nothing much to post, but to say I'm living fine and I know I'm being lame. Just to assure all of you that I am still actively checking my blog. Thank you and I hope to see yours tags =).


It's been a long time since I last update, but please forgive me again for not being able to give a lengthy post.

I went out with Shiang Ning yesterday to have a pre-birthday celebration. So we exchanged birthday presents. I gave her Mac eyeshadow black and she gave me a set of acrylic paints. Female's make-up is the face; Male's make-up is the paper(At least it applies for me)! I really enjoyed her company of shopping with me for two hours at IMM. It has been one whole month alone by myself so it was rather boring, and that is why I'm glad she was willing to do so.

Today was great also. Dad has off today so he brought me and mum out for breakfast, then to East Coast Park. It has really been a long time since I got breeze and ray on my face. We had a jolly time sitting near the beach, then we went to my future school, NYP.

NYP is very spacious; from their walkways to food centres to shops. After passing lockers and notice boards, we went into "KouFu" and had our lunch there. Then we went home again. =( I don't feel like going out neither =(

Thanks for reading this post. I can see a couple of you coming here faithfully to check on my posts.


Hi all! Long time no see again! =) I thought my blog was dead. Actually I've got nothing to type lah... But just want to update to show all of you that my blog is still alive kay!

Recently, I mainly spend my time on facebook and art. These two are rather time-killing, so I took up these two hobbies. In the whole, yeah I am fine. =D Hope to see all of you soon. I promise to mass spam my blog once poly starts so as to give all of you insights into my poly life! =) But for now, really got nothing to update... So sry :(


Hi all!!! It has been a long time since I last update. I admit I'm quite addicted to facebook ok =) But I will occasionally still check my blog for any request regarding my blog. I know my blog is close to dead, but I will try very much possible to update whenever possible.

Feeling loadless nowadays, past memories do indeed visit me again. In such a busy and bustling city like Singapore, have you ever pause and reflect and look back into your pass? Perhaps it's the stress that prevents people from looking back. However, these few days I'm led back to my early childhood.

I can only remember things as of 5years old. When I was a kindergarten kid, I was some sort of ostracized by my classmates because I was sitting amongst girls in my group and the girls don't like boys, where all the boys are grouped together, and the girl in their group benefit 'cos boys don't really care about hating girls at that age. So if you will to see, my K1 life was terribly lonely. I was writing with my righthand and my teachers all complained of my atrocious handwriting.

Until I changed to Milk and Honey Kindergarten when I was K2. The teachers there treated me more like a child. The class consists of lesser children so there was no grouping. So I made friends and I had self-discovery that I'm a left-hander from one of my teachers. My handwriting definitely improved tremendously. I re-learnt A-Z when I was 6years old. As you can see, I was a slow-learner.

Eventually I entered primary school. Not going to give you a grandfather's story but will be picking out some milestones. I didn't like my tuition teachers for specific reasons and I'm not going to post here. My school was an all-boys school. I had friends that took advantaged of my innocence by making me fall into their tricks, but I didn't do it back to them because that is graciousness. I know in my heart too who are they. Yet some of them keep taking it for granted. The more I keep it to myself, the more they want to hurt me. They just want me to look awful in front of the teachers. Lucky the teachers shut an eye. I had only a few exceptionally close friends that I'm still in touch with today. I didn't miss my primary school as much as my secondary school. Perhaps it would be that I don't want to remember somethings that are awful.

When I was in Sunday School I thought I knew what God is all about. Pray, read the bible, fast, be righteous, give tithes. 'Aren't all these the right way to live a Christian life?' I thought to myself. I was so blinded that I realised that I went church to see my friends every Sunday and to be well-liked. I was so foolish to memorise memory verses blindly and take them literally. I like to carry out 'ritual', and it is tiring. It was even tiring when I went to adult service with my parents and when I return, I see all my Sunday-school teachers give me the sour look. I had enough and I left Sunday-school. Enough is enough. I quit. I don't read the bible anymore, and I just go to church to 'see show' and to please my parents. Deep down it was agonizing.

Perhaps some of you have heard of my life-story before, but these are the things that I reflected upon, so do mind bearing with me.

I was really blaming God for all He has done to my life. Got a below expected score and went into Jurongville Sec. I was asking: "God, if you are really so real and so almighty, why despite my prayer, you still did not fufill what I wanted?" I admit I did treat God as a vending machine then.

I eventually started school, and I'm surprised that this time I made so much more friends than before. And God is good to provide me with a friend of the same birthday as me so we can celebrate it together annually. For my Primary school years, I don't remember any memorable birthday surprises in school. I also feel happier, because the people in school do not practise politics in school. There was so much more of trust and freedom. Away from backstabbing and hurts. God has indeed placed me in the right environment. Imagine if I enter those all-boys schools again; I think I wouldn't be the Mark you know now.

Joined 86th coy Boys' Brigade. Got into a cell group and started going to Youth service at EXPO Max Pavillion every Sunday. I didn't know why, but a warm feeling began to bloom in my heart. It was the warmth of the Lord. I didn't know when it started or even remembered the exact time or date, but I can feel the grace and love of God. I can't even comprehend but it is a special feeling. Like falling in love with a girl(Close to but not exactly).

God gave me a miracle at sec4 to let me see of his presence in hardship. Reference: Profile June 2008. He hadn't give up on me so I didn't give up on me.

But recently my heart began to doubt Him. I expected to enter business/humanities-related courses, but end up in Science-related courses. I promised myself no more to take Science anymore throughout my life, because I don't see that I will excel in it in any way. I shake even when I hold the test-tube. And all memory work when my memory is terrible. I suddenly begin to feel if he knows me inside out or not. I'll be considered idiot if I still think that my maker don't know me inside out. But I feel that way. I feel dumb too. Will a potter not know his clay inside out?

Until two daya ago I finally realised that what I know about myself might be wrong. My dad and me went down to downstair's kopitiam to have coffee drink. Looking at my expression is like reading a book to him. So he began to remind me of his life again. He told me about it before, but somehow I don't see a link of his job to my study.

It is a bit confidential here though I wish to type, so I'll type what I can. Seeing the US economy crash slipping past him confirmed God's perfect plan for his life. He also did not expect to be in what he is working as now, with a salary good enough to feed four. And it's not just recent things that happened, but even before that, things seem to slip past and go, so now he is still working fine at this age. If God has made a path for Dad, so will He make a path for all of us, as long as we ask Him for direction. If He tilts your path it doesn't mean he is thwarting your life; perhaps it is to avoid certain disastrous things that might happen to you.

My doubt is still in midst of dissolving, but I really pray that there will be a promise for my future if I continue to believe in Him.


Hi all. It's been a long, long, long, long time since I've last updated. Under huge pressure of many of my friends and juniors, I've decided to finally update my blog. It's not that I do not want to update my blog; it's just that the things that I will to update might be quite trivial, so there's nothing to update about each time.

Sunday was Promotion Ceremony on Bukit Timah Hill. After climbing down the hill, we went to Bukit Timah Food and Drinks Centre to have breakfast. After which me and Soon Lee went home together on 52 from a bus stop opposite NP. Then went to chinese service with my family. Then went home and stay home for the whole day.

Monday was spent whole day at home. Went to SATA medical clinic at Jurong East on Tuesday afternoon. Got a series of check-ups from urine's dipstick test to blood pressure test. Was so shocked when I saw my urine of froth sticking to the cup surface. Lucky the report put negative for glucose, blood, and albumin, then I heaved a great sigh of relief.

Overslept for afternoon nap on Wednesday, so didn't manage to make it for AQ training. Thursday is today. Went polyclinic to visit the doctor. So that's all folks. More details, please log on to www.facebook.com to see my profile. Thank you and hope to post again.


Happy Velentine's Day!!!

My Valentine's Day is so bland. Went to parade this morning. Chin Boon passed me his lecture notes:) He say will pass me the remaining ones next week:) At least can help me kill some free time at home.

Then went home and rest till about 4pm and went out with parents to Vienna buffet at United Square. The food there is super scrumptous & sumptous(opps... primary school food desciption). You should go try it 'cos you will dream of going back many more times (opps... I just aided some marketing for Vienna =X). It would be good to call 100 and ask for Vienna's number and then call Vienna restaurant to reserve seats for you... 'cos the probability for an empty air-conditioned seat unreserved is close to a zero-percent. Anyway I felt like a gooseberry(my mum and dad needed some time of romantic ambience in the restaurant),so two's a company, three's a crowd =X

So that's it for Valentine's Day. God is my Valentine :))


Hi to everyone who sees this post!!! I've not been updating my posts regularly nowadays; 'cos I am busy with facebook! Anyway, I really found back a lot of my Primary School classmates and friends through the facebook. Was so afraid I will completely lose contact with all of them. I had never expected of finding them back, but somehow I did =)

I wonder what would be this season of my life going to be, but it seems somewhat significant to me, yet in very subtle ways. I am shifted to a new place, new environment with new friends(perhaps with a few older ones),and I begin to feel quite wavered and insecure. But I will trust in Him that there is a special reason why I am placed in this school, this course, this time. Still anticipating for my purpose and future.

When I went back to school two days ago to take my award and to join in AQ training, I saw a lot of my 4A'08 classmates return. Lots of them are wearing the JJC PE shirt and Skirt/pants. I have to accept the fact that I'll no longer be wearing uniform ever again(except NS). I will miss them lots =( and I will miss some of the teachers(though not all).

So as you can see there is really a major transition in my life. I unexpectantly found back my Primary School friends, see all my secondary school friends getting posted to different schools, and see myself going into quite an unexpected course. Can you imagine what are my emotions? They are jumbled, with ingredients of elation, excitement, surprise, nervousness, bitter-sweetness, melancholy, disappointment and fear. All in one go. My emotion meter has really in one way or another lost sensitivity.


Wow! It has been a long day outside.

Went to Morning service, then attended 4W held by Ps William. Learnt quite a lot of things. For example, some skills you might apply to make the cell more effective, but the main emphasis was not the strategies. For the cell to stand, only the love of God can sustain its foundation.

So I went out with my sister to Takashimaya Shopping Centre. We shopped, ate, bought, and I found her buying lots of things, whereas I bought nothing at all :(

Actually we went up to Kinokuniya book store. Had the initial intention of purchasing some books for occupying my time for the next 2months of staring out of the window. But I changed my mind again. I'll be visiting the library again right? Why not borrow the book than buy the book? So to save some cash, I decided to cool down my impulse by having more self-control.

My sister couldn't resist the temptation of facial-art materials everytime she looks at it. Is she addicted to make-up? O.o I was really surprised by what facial-art provide its artist with. I went in SaSa with my sis, and discovered a sharperner!!!! And the paintbrushes!!!! And the colour pencils(Mascara)!!! And the Thiner(nail-polish remover-.-")!!! So you can see the variety of 'art supplies' you can get in a cosmetic shop. The sharperner was super expensive, tree dollars plus, and I'll never buy it because to sharpen a colour pencil, I can just buy those cheap ones at my school bookshop at one dollar!

Here's my sis very own vid!!



Anyway, thank you Wenliang for borrowing me your sem 1 notes. Will be going through it ASAP so that Rebecca can receive it fast and then return you fast also.


Hi all again! I've not been consistently updating my blog as I'm recently rather busy visiting the library. Have not visited the library for ages already, so I really do miss the smell of books.

Actually, I have accepted the fact of fate that I'll be taking this course, although I did not intend to pick up this course initially. However, it is already a fact, and so there's no point regretting on things that cannot be undone, or things that I was not able to accomplish. I believe my thinking and my heart is gradually changing; changing to accept reality, to become more adaptable to things outside my comfort zone.

However, I was greatly distressed by the news that the statistics for University Admission rate for NP and SP is higher. This means that I'll have to study arduously hard. People from better Secondary Schools like CHIJ, that don't take the 'Thru-Train route' will be brought into the scene and the competition will be great. So a neighbourhood student like me; I have to use true self-discipline to study harder. I don't believe I cannot enter a local university. I shall prove to you. You know who I'm referring to :)

I'm not saying you are trying to pour wet blanket on me; It's just that I don't want to let my parents pay too much for my education. You shouldn't encourage me to ask my parents to send me to go abroad for University. I want to use true capabiliities and compete to the best! I don't want to keep using my parent's money, 'cos I feel guilty to keep doing so. So I would like to challenge you for local-U; Are you game?


Hi all! Let me describe to you the events that happened in the period that I was away.

Let's start from Sunday. Went for Chinese service at TCT at around 11.30am. After church, had a bit of lunch and headed straight to my relative's house. Have yet to introduce to you my cousin who is about 1+ old, and her name is called Luvyna. We don't call her that though, as 'le xuan' sounds better. Here is a video on her:

Isn't she cute?

So that was for Sunday. Went to help my mum's florist again on Monday. Then the rest of the day was stoning at home serving facebook and games.

Tuesday was day out with Ernest and Benjamin Lam. Have not met Benjamin since sec1 and Ernest since sec2. So we met at Bishan Junction8 and shopped from afternoon 3pm to evening 9pm. No wonder my leg was dull numb when I took off my shoes. Shopping at Bishan and seeing two of my primary school friends helped me to reminisce a lot about my childhood. Perhaps I used to linger around the city area in my childhood days, but I got back the feelings of my past, the feelings that I lost for the past 4years studying and living all in Jurong. No wonder I felt so queasy when I visited NYP, a familiar yet undescribable feeling.

Talking about today: I went out with Rebecca and Pebbles to Jurong East Library, to research on our course modules. Instead, we went to eat lunch at IMM from 2~4pm! So we wasted quite a lot of time. Rebecca felt tired and eventually left early, so me and Pebbles made our way to JE regional library by bus 11 and eventually reached destination. Pebbles is a novel-freak. She borrows 4books at one go and will finish all of them by date due. I will never be able to do so man! That's why throughout the years I have outstanding fine payments that caused a hole in me and my parents' pockets. So she went to the novel section and me to the reference section. Eventually she messaged me that she'll be going home. In other words, it would have been the same to come to the library alone!

Woke up at 8.06am today. So 'zhun' right? Woke up 6minutes after the sms was sent by MOE. I was actually very deep into my sleep, but somehow I wonder what had woke me up. Whether it is excitement, or anxiety, or anticipation, I still have to face the posting results.

Got into Nanyang Polytechnic's Pharmaceutical Science. I was really surprised why I didn't feel shocked or surprise or anything like that. Rebecca's words yesterday woke me up. Life is not always ideal. So when the posting results came, I felt pure calm.

However, I really want to thank God for something: I was not able to enter Molecular Biotechnology. I would rather take Pharmaceutical Science in a polytechnic which is a bit further than NP than to take that course. My Physics was not as good as my Bio/Chem, although PS involves a few bit of Physics.

Anyway, where to go from here on out? Just study hard and enter a University and get a Degree. That makes no difference from the JC route, only a bit longer if you have no exemption. My only last prayer for this JAE exercise is that I'll learn to embrace and enjoy this course for the next 3years. No matter what I do, I'm going to do it all for His sake, not mine. Most importantly, if He feels please with me, I am willing to do anything for Him.

At around 2pm, went to see 'Wedding game' with Wee Khong, Wen Hui, Juanne, Charis and Rebecca. The whole show so funny. Not going to give a review unless anyone says I'm a spoil spot. Heard that Wee Khong entered JJC, Wen Hui entered ACJC. The rest entered polytechnic courses, but definitely good ones. I feel happy for all my friends; Good luck to your future endeavours.


Hi! I'm recently very involved in what is very renowned for its popularity: Facebook.

The PetSociety was quite fun as it allows people to create their own pets and personalise their homes, looks, and leave messages. As OSN stated in her very own blog, it is indeed a new species of game with both the combination of Neopets and Habbo. Other than the PetSociety, there are also other games such as 'Who has the biggest brain' which I thought was very amusing to see them countdown with 3brains, 2brains, then 1brain and then the host of the game appear. The game is to test your IQ, which was fairly a challenging game. Then was another game known as 'Word Challenge'. It was quite a nice game as time was a great factor. You have to form as much words with the letters provided. It was sort of 'addictive', but temporary addiction, so you don't have to fear being hooked to the game for long hours in front of the computer.

The rest of my whole day includes adding other functionalities like the xatquiz which is located above this post. Came up with quite a lot of questions so that you will get to know and understand me better. Some questions are very challenging(like what is my birthday 'cos memory comes into play also), while others can be done simply by being more observant (How I react in anger, etc). Most importantly pls remember to have fun. And pls feedback to me about myself in the poll section 'cos I am fairly serious in self-improvement, so please give the most suitable feedback.

Just talked with Rebecca in the phone just now regarding the JAE. And I got new insights and discoveries into my results. I overlooked the L1R2B2 for business. And I got 18 points, with CCA bonus can only obtain 16 points. Wonder which business course will accept me. So I was quite disappointed but I could neither cry, nor feel emo; but I feel pure calm. Not pure clam 'cos you can only get it at the seaside, but pure calm. Perhaps my heart is already dead.


It's the second day of the Lunar New Year and the same process of visitation of my relatives and cousin's house still continues. However, we had breakfast in the morning at 7-Star Restaurant(sounds high-class right?) which sells mostly dim sum and the queue was exceedingly long. Able to heave a sigh as the others are already at the table long before us, and it felt quite awkward to walk in late. However, the ice was broken in matters of seconds, and paradoxysms of laughter broke out across the tables, and the food definitely was as good as the interaction there. I really missed my cousins and relatives a lot as we really SELDOM meet. As we age in matters of years, the frequency of our contact gets fewer and fewer. What about in the future when we all have successful careers an families? Just hope to be able to see my cousins and relatives at least once a year as they have been present in my childhood memories very vividly.

Right after the breakfast we headed straight to the Lentor Residence, a nursing home for old patients, which was only a few streets away, located in Yio Chu Kang also. She is my 'Ah-Zhor', otherwise known as my great-grandmother from the maternal side. Despite living for 90plus years, she still has a complete set of teeth. Can you believe it? Her calcium in her body is so suffice that she can chew without much difficulty. However, she is suffering from Senile Dermentia, so she cannot recall any of us at all, perhaps only my grandma, and she has also lost her ability of speech already, even the most basic facial expressions. But I can see through her eyes that she is excited, seeing so many people gathering and seeing my grandma feeding her.

Talking about my grandma's positive qualities again; I really admire her ability to let go of certain things that will do good upon letting go. She has the ability to forgive. My 'Ah-Zhor' might have mistreated her when she was younger due to the traditional theory of "Zhong Nan Qing Nu"(Being biased towards boys), yet my grandma was able to forgive her of all that she has done, and even to the extend of visiting her as frequently as possible, especially during festive seasons. I could see that it was love that motivated her to doing this act; the act of loving the people who hurt you most by forgiveness and avenging with goodness. I feel that Grandma should bring us to visit Ah-Zhor more often, so that the coming generations will see and learn this extraodinary love of kinship.

Talking about ourselves. Probably you have a person who have hurt you before, and you think of hurting the person in return. Think again. The best avengement would be returning evil for good, for then the true victory comes; The victory of winning over the heart of the one who hurt you. True love endures all fire.


Hi! I'm back from the Lunar New Year visitation of my relative's house.

It has been a looooooooooooong time since I last met my relatives. They grew quite alot, especially the boys. So I'm constantly having the inadequacy of feeling tall. I was super surprised that none of my relatives queried anything regarding my results, as if they knew it all already. However, I really appreciate their sensitivity towards my feelings, and the day did run smooth today.

However, most of the time have been spent in front of the television. The adults are all having their entertainment on a squarish table stacked with cuboids(am I too implicit? =X). Nothing much to do for me as I don't even have the basic skills for that game. So the rest of the day for me has been rather dry; eating goodies and watching a series of TV dramas(perhaps it is to prepare me for Movie Marathon? O.o)

However, the same scene keep coming back to me in between periods of today. I'm pretty disturbed by it. Yesterday when I was at Expo MRT interchange, I asked Kenny to wait for me to buy something from 7-Eleven. We just came out for service, so we can take our time for our journey home. So after buying a bottle of coffee, I remained outside for awhile as Kenny said he wanted to buy some drink. So he went inside the 7-Eleven store. I'm alone outside the store, so I keep waiting for him. And here comes a group of people; China-looking family; Consists of a boy, a girl, (both about 4years old estimating from their height) a father, and an uncle. The uncle was not obvious in the scene at first, but the most disturbing thing happened. I do not really know what the children did to agitate the father so much, but the father did a close to inhumane act. He had the heart to kick his very own children; three times in public. I was seriously traumatized(can you imagine the poor children?). You can spank the child with the hand, but never kick them with the feet(and with his filthy shoe). If not the uncle quickly came in to stop him, he would have continued kicking his children till they bleed. And worse of all it happened in public, yet everyone was like me, closing an eye to such public abuse acts. I feel really regretful and guilty for not approaching the father and telling him off, yet I'm equally afraid as I'm not prepared to get hit a black eye. The uncle also did not tell the dad off, which I feel was super wrong. He seem to have no sign of shock or panic when the dad kicked his children; which could probably mean the children might have been abused many times in the same or different manner before.

I would very much appreciate should the government better educate its citizens on how to react to abuse incidents, whether it is for private or public abuse. The television might be a source, but having such education in schools to educate children since young might be even more effective to help children better understand what is abuse and whether they are in any form of it, and also teaching the students on what to do if they are being abused.

I'm just worried for these children's future. With an abusive father, they might grow up with the wrong values, and I really pray very, very hard that the Lord will one day change the father's heart, as it is stated in a bible verse "I will turn the hearts of the Father to the children, and the hearts of the children to the father". There is nothing more pleasing then to see a family joining in one body and leading a peaceful and meaningful life together.

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